starting over

        THURSDAY 3/31/22 6:38PM--suddenly I owe the roomie $250 dollars--*I* think that's a bit much, but I'M not in charge of my Life. I just do what I'm told.From $975 to $605 in one day.*     Actually, I don't wanna live anymore. It may be mostly (or all) my fault, but my Life has not gone the way I wanted it to--not even close. And there's not one effin' thing I can do about it, that I know of. 7:45PM--As I've become fond of saying, bedtime can't come soon enough. 11:40PM--I'm hoping two Trazodones WON'T become the new normal...Gonna try to go to bed now. FRIDAY 4/1/22 12:15PM--Well I got the groceries and the Dog. And I went to Safeway and got some real cheese--I deserve a treat IMO. I think we're going to Verizon after Dianne gets off work. I need to get my old phone turned completely off and Dianne wants to exchange her new one for a smaller/lighter one.Tomorrow morning we're going to a rummage sale in Poolesville. 5:15PM--No, it...

    THURSDAY 3/31/22 1:31PM-I’m sitting on the deck, waiting for Jorge and the girls to finish up. The way my luck’s been running lately, it should be raining any minute now. I wish I knew what I have  done to deserve all this misfortune so that I can know to never  EVER do it again.        1:38PM-I believe it’ll be raining within the next five minutes if not sooner. I imagine Jorge and the girls will be here another half hour – boy, do I hope I’m wrong.          1:44PM- I think they’re leaving shortly…Naptime, however  brief it will turn out to be, might be starting in the next 15 minutes or thereabouts. I see two Klondike bars in my immediate future-*I* think I deserve it. In which case my naptime will start at 2:30.

          TUESDAY 3/29/22 4:56PM-Well, I THINK I got back the apps that I wanted, the apps that I use the most. I don’t know for sure yet but for right this minute, it looks that way. And I did it by myself, THIS TIME Dianne didn't help me. I THINK the last hurdle was getting Bing back onto the Home Screen. The iPhone 13 Mini camera(s) are more complicated.    6:15PM--I'm a little bit happier than I was, so I'll take what I can get. 7:00PM--like always, I look forward to bedtime...the problem is, bedtime leads to another day. 9:21PM--I dunno why, but both of our former iPhones are apparently still active. I foresee ANOTHER trip to Verizon, probably tomorrow. Or Thursday. WEDNESDAY 3/30/22 1:19pm--much to my surprise the SSA money is in the Bank. The new monthly amount seems to be $920 dollars, giving me a total of $975.That makes me happy.      I think Lou and I are meeting tomorrow night at an open mic at Umberto's (108 and Brookvill...

PM             SUNDAY 3/27/22 4:18 PM-take me back to the good old days, when things were built to last and not break down after a couple of years. Take me back to a time when I can go to a store and buy something, not make an appointment to be waited on. Take me back to a time when I wasn’t forced to buy a product I didn’t want because the product I DID want is (surprise) no longer available. Back to a time when the turnover for  new technology was longer than a year or so.        It all boils down to the greed of American capitalism. So because it’s the 21st-century, I’m stuck with a more or less dead phone until I keep my appointment tomorrow. I’m really surprised that it will let me do THIS, because it won’t let me do anything else. It figures – I get my laptop back and then my phone dies… I smell a technological rat. Dianne is in a department store; she’s been there for at least 25 minutes.       Maybe I sh...

      THURSDAY  3/24/22 8:05PM-11AM FRIDAY can’t come soon enough. I think the only thing I have on my schedule for tomorrow is picking up the laptop. That’s enough for me. I didn’t go to Bippy‘s Pub tonight  by myself; mostly because I didn’t want to. I guess my next open mic appearance will be Monday at Hank Dietle’s. I  don’t really have any idea as to what’s going on this weekend… I think there’s a visit to Annapolis and a visit to Riderwood as well. Both on the same day, I just don’t know which day that is – Saturday or Sunday.ADDENDUM-it’s Saturday. 9:48PM-I’m just trying to make it to bedtime. I don’t think I’ll be up past 11PM. 10:22PM-I just took the late night meds; so I might make it to 11:30. I took TWO Trazodones…I figure I’m going to end up taking a second one later tonight so I might as well do it now.              FRIDAY 3/25/22 12:25PM--the laptop is back where it belongs. I'm assuming (ya know how danger...

            THURSDAY -3/23/22 5PM-I thought life was going to be relatively easy without a laptop – I was wrong. I can do THIS, but not easily. Lunch with SueEl was very nice, probably the best grilled cheese sandwich I’ve ever eaten.We went to a Panera near the place we usually go-McDonald’s.           So now I’m doing laundry; just one load of jeans. I wouldn’t mind having one black pair of jeans, but I don’t know where to get it from. I MIGHT still have one pair, but they’re in rough shape. 5:25PM-it’s gonna be really tough doing without Zen Coloring for a couple of days; I find it relaxes me – most of the time. 8:55PM-The laptop will be ready to be picked up on Friday  at 10:40 AM… I’m happy, but slightly disappointed – I had hoped I’d get it back tomorrow- oh well… 11:30PM-I took the trash down about five or 10 minutes ago; ready or not,  I’m going to bed at midnight…

         MONDAY 3/21/22 10:12PM--I really don't like being in a trio, I'm a team player, but the team has to be bigger than a Bass player and a drummer. And having a singer doesn't change anything...It sounds like BS, but I play better if I've got a second guitarist (or keyboard player) onstage with me.      I think tomorrow is a kind of "day off" for me. And *I* think I deserve it...SueEl has band practice on Thursday, so IF I go out, I'll be alone.              TUESDAY 3/22/22--Today DOES seem to be a day off for me, so far. Tomorrow I have an appointment at Best Buy, to get the laptop "cleaned out". I don't mind doing w/o it, when it's MY idea, but not knowing how long it'll be in the shop is annoying at least. Although putting it in the shop IS my idea. 1:30PM--so much for the day off...gotta make an appointment with the Kidney Doctor, I'll do that after my nap, IF I get one. And then I'll go to the Bank an...

        SUNDAY 3/20/22 10:50AM--the process of getting older can't be stopped, so I guess I'll have to get used to it. I had an ugly omelete for breakfast, but it tasted good. I'm going to Best Buy with the roomie, and we're dropping off some stuff at  "the doggie place" after which I dunno what's happening.   12:35PM--I shoulda had Lunch by now, but breakfast was late, so Lunch will be too and Dinner also for that matter. 5:30PM--I didn't start my nap until about 4:00, but it lasted almost an hour and a half. Dinner will likely be at 7, probably no sooner. *I* think it will be Fettuccine Alfredo, what the Universe has in Mind, I have no idea. 8:05PM-I can’t make it to Physical Therapy; I have to call them to let them know. I’m getting a visit from the UHC rep…SueEl wants to go to Dietle’s…I don’t-yet. MONDAY 3/21/22 9:25AM--I cancelled my physical therapy appointment. Cancelling it was almost TOO easy. But that's one less thing; so I'm actua...

        THURSDAY 3/17/22 11:50PM--while setting up my gear for the gig with Ray, I fell down. Dozens of people witnessed the incident. I was in a squatting position, like a baseball catcher, when it came over me. Hopefully I won't make THAT mistake again. (yeah right)    The gig itself went well enough, considering that Ray met the Bass player when they were setting everything up. I know him as the Bass player for RAGS...I'm sure he'll have a lot to tell them next time they have practice, if not sooner.      FRIDAY 3/18/22 8:08AM--I've already done something--I took the dog to her playtime facility. Now I have nothing major to do until Dianne and I leave for the gig at Pirates Cove. I DO have to unload my car and load up hers, but that shouldn't take more than a couple of minutes, right? 11:32AM--following Ray's advice, I made a reservation for two for the gig tonight--one less thing... 12:18PM--brought Muzzy home and now I'm having Lunch.....

        TUESDAY 3/15/22 9:52AM--I can't wait until tomorrow, it's my "day off". No doctor's appointments...phone calls perhaps, and possibly a trip to the Recycling Center to get rid of some trash.    Thursday is a gig with Ray, which I'm not all that excited about yet...I'm kinda depressed about becoming a prostitute, but not enough to turn down the opportunity. Thursday is also my next scheduled session of physical therapy; and I'm not excited about THAT.              3:35PM-It kinda feels like Monday again, and that kinda sucks. Tomorrow is still, as far as I’m concerned, (almost) a “day off”. IF I still have that mini-amp, maybe I’ll take THAT to Killarney House. And of course there's ALWAYS laundry to do, so really it's not a day off at all. 5:08PM--doing some  laundry, gonna do more tomorrow...I found the mini-amp, the batteries seem to be in good shape...I'll check it out tomorrow. And I set the clock under th...

            SUNDAY 3/13/22 11:34AM--I suspect it's gonna be a looooong day. Losing an hour messes me up, at least for a few days.The only good thing about today is that it's Sunday. I know that Dianne has  a major Project she needs to tackle...NOT AT ALL looking forward to THAT. Oh well...       1:05PM--I think that possibly maybe it could be that Dianne's Project is finished. I want/need to make a trip to Safeway to get soda and (if possible) Milk. I tried to have the garlic bread for Lunch but it was like trying to eat a rock; the pizza wasn't that much better. The difference is Dianne paid for the pizza...SueEl and Doug paid for the garlic bread (and mozzarella sticks-THEY were good) so what they don't know won't hurt me. 4:45PM--getting ready to go to Giant Food (Dianne's choice) for groceries...better selection if a bit slower...we should be home by six o'clock... 5:38PM-well, I’M finished. I got 3 bottles of  Diet Ginger Ale,...

             TUESDAY 3/8/22 10:40AM--By any chance, is it still Monday? It sure feels like it to me. The Brain Scan is History;now I can focus on tonight's sit-in with Ray...I hope to warm up on the acoustic guitar at least a little before I leave, but I'm not optimistic about that actually happening.          Not just because we had company yesterday, but the whole house seems to be unorganized. I will accept MY share of the blame, but not ALL of it. 11:20PM--just got home from Severna Park--with ten dollars I didn't have when I left the house...I'll consider the other $10 to be my contribution to the Ukrainian Peace Effort. I plyed better than I did Monday night (couldn't have played any worse), but I barely heard my guitar and it got worse when we (literally) unplugged. SOME of the harmonies between Drea, Ray and me were pretty good.Dunno when I'm gonna do it again, I'll have to check Ray's schedule. WEDNESDAY 3/9/22 9:51A...

       MONDAY 3/7/22 10AM--Lou wants me to come with him to an open mic in Monrovia on Thursday. I've asked him if I could bring SueEl; haven't heard from him yet. She might not wanna go, I guess I'll find out soon enough.    10:15AM--SueEl can't go--she has band practice.    10:25AM--Ray wants me to come to Brian Boru tomorrow; I want to, but a lot can happen in 24 hours.    10:41AM--there's a guy here, building furniture...His English seems to be good enough...I'm just worried about how much he knows about building furniture. I guess many  American Men don't wanna lower themselves to such un-intellectual work. Not to mention how much money American men would wanna get paid. 11:00AM--I think the guy is gonna be here a LONG time, until like three or four o'clock...*I*  think that kinda stinks. 1:35PM-The power just went out; I think he’ll  be here until dinner time at least – really REALLY not happy about that. 1:40PM-Powe...

  SUNDAY 3/6/22–3:25 PM-Well it’s taken a long time but Dianne finally started decluttering the house by way of Donating things. We are at the “doggy place” and I’m not going in. They usually don’t have any books that I would be interested in and I wouldn’t  mind saving some money either. My sleep schedule has been totally trashed… And, to some degree, so has my eating schedule.           I guess at this point, it’s safe to say that I’ll probably never be in another Band. Instead of being known  locally as someone who’s moderately talented and a fairly cool guy, I think I’m probably lumped in with the musicians that I know who (IMO) leave a lot to be desired technique-wise, if you get my drift. As in, “they’re not very good… I THINK I’m as good a Musician as they are, if not better”…and of course, there’s the issue of my deteriorating health…          All because what *I*, as a band member, thought a band sounded like was...

      ...but I think it's gonna be a LONG day.     SATURDAY 3/5/22 11:15AM--we're taking a somewhat large bookcase to Unique, and then (I think) it's on to Riderwood for Dinner. It's been said that we're leaving at two o'clock--that works for me... 1:00PM--I won't be taking a nap after Lunch, and I'm pretty tired NOW. 4:40PM -We have arrived at Riderwood …we should be home by 7. I MIGHT go see the Bandits at Hershey’s…they start at Eight. I guess I don’t wanna seem bitter (to myself) about not getting in the band 6:19PM - Dinner was pretty good; and you can’t argue with FREE. Pretty sure I’m going to Hershey’s…The Sonata is fun to drive, but a teeny bit scary as well. It’s getting dark-I don’t like THAT.        I guess it depends on when we get home, but I need to change SOME articles  of clothing. Dianne has been gone about 20 minutes…I’m expecting her to come out momentarily. I suspect that we won’t get home until 7:30;  I guess I...

               THURSDAY 3/3/22 8:21AM--I couldn't get the Brain scan done this morning, for the reason I had predicted. So now I gotta go to Olney next Tuesday. I think I see Dr. Gold tomorrow, fortunately he's across the street.          There are a couple of meds that I'm out of, for one thing and I don't wanna wait until June to see the kidney doctor.   6:55PM--even though it seems to be far away (because it is) I think SueEl and I are going to Bippy's Pub, near Ellicott City. This means (IMO) getting a VERY  early start, like possibly leaving SueEl's at (possibly) Six o'clock. We'll see.I think I'm just gonna bring my guitar, Max usually has an amp to play through. 8:10PM-suddenly SueEl is feeling oogy … We might not go to Bippy’s after all – I wouldn’t cry if we didn’t go. 11:47PM--we DID go, and I DO feel like crying. In spite of having SuEl (AND Gooogle Maps) to guide me, had lotsa trouble finding the pla...