is that my fault too? I think so

 

        

                   MONDAY 11/29/21 9:48PM--it has belatedly occurred to me that, from where *I* sit, Dianne seems to be almost as friendless as I am... I'm pretty sure that's my fault...and I'm pretty sure it's my fault that her Life has not turned out the way she probably envisioned it--not even close I bet...her younger sister marrried a DOCTOR and had three kids...she married (and divorced) a worthless schmuck from Glen Burnie...a Musician...and a failure at that...she has absolutely nothing to celebrate...no wonder SHE'S depressed...
TUESDAY 11/30/21 10:27AM--as far as I know, I have no plans...I have stuff I should be doing, but I still don't feel like doing ANYTHING--except sleeping...and eating, if only a little...I don't even feel like doodling...
2:44PM--going to CVS and Safeway soon...
3:34PM--and so I did...and I got some cash and gas as well...I THINK the SSA check will be in the Bank possibly as early as tomorrow morning...but just in case it's not, I've got a few bucks in my pocket...$66 to be exact...
4:30PM--staying off of Fakebook ain't easy, but I'm working on it...but there's not much else to do...Twitter doesn't do a whole lot for me...it never has...
5:36PM--went across the street and got Dianne's medicine...I guess my day is done...gonna have dinner soon and then the countdown to bedtime starts...
6:36PM--dinner almost finished...not quite as satisfying as I had hoped it would be, but maybe it will be better next time...
7:14PM--boredom is a major bummer IMO...still haven't heard from any of my so-called (Fakebook) friends...except SueEl of course...for all *I* know, she might wanna go to Hershey's on Thursday...I don't think *I* will want to...my last major FB post was made two weeks ago and I haven't heard from ANYBODY--Lou, Michelle, to name two of the many "friends" I used to think I had...and I feel bad for Dianne--I don't know if she feels the same way I do--friendless...but I'll bet, truth be told, she does--and that is probably my fault...
9:51PM--just took the green capsules, about twenty minutes or so ago...gonna try to stay awake until 11PM more or less...on the other hand, if I watch CLOSE ENCOUNTERS, I'll be up until ONE AM...which might be ok after all...

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